No matter how much I exercise and think I'm cutting back eating, I don't seem to be losing. I feel bloated and tight--my joints feel thick, especially my elbows and knees. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, but I don't feel like I'm losing any weight. Blah. How much of a diet/fitness routine is psychological. Saying f*** this and who cares if I never lose weight, only to keep on going so that eventually, the weight will be lost. There's so much doubt--what if there's a medical reason for my lack of ability to lose? What if I'm never going to lose this? What if . . . .
I'm so tired of being overweight that that's about the only thing that allows me to keep on going. I'm tired. Just tired.
I'm hoping tomorrow and the promised 63 degrees that it is supposed to fall to tonight will help in the morning as I plan to run/walk and feel good doing it . . . . if it kills me.
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